╻ [PDF]- Download Switching Time: A Doctor's Harrowing Story of Treating a Woman with 17 Personalities ▪ Kindle Ebook By Richard Baer ◔ ╻ [PDF]- Download Switching Time: A Doctor's Harrowing Story of Treating a Woman with 17 Personalities ▪ Kindle Ebook By Richard Baer ◔ Chapter 1Staying AlivePart One1.False StartIts January 11, 1989, and I walk down the narrow corridor, past the two other therapists offices, to the waiting room to fetch Karen She sits in the corner with her head bent, fidgeting with her purse strap Shes twenty nine years old but looks older shes overweight, with a round face, unkempt short brown hair that curls at the ends, brown eyes, gold rimmed glasses, and a jagged, semicircular scar running up the middle of her forehead Her clothes are tidy, but her black cotton pants and brown top dont ask to be noticed She wears no makeup or jewelry except a wedding band She looks up as I approach Her eyes say, Hi, Im sorry, I give up.Come right in, I say, and she walks past me in a way that is slow, self effacing, apologetic, and helpless Theres a physical and emotional heaviness about her, an inertia that seems old and solid.Im a young psychiatrist thirty seven is young in this business Im a little over six feet tall, with sprinkles of gray in my formerly dark brown hair, and I once had a gay patient who described me as having boyish good looks Ive been in practice for seven years, practicing part of the time in a working class suburb south of Chicago The patients I see here are mainly housewives who are depressed or anxious, a few middle age manic depressives, andseveral elderly patients with what used to be called involutional melancholia, the depressive illness that is common in old age I also see a few high functioning schizophrenics and a couple of people in religious life This is a good place to practice because of the wide variety of psychiatric illnesses I get to observeand almost all the patients are covered by generous union medical insurance I also have an office in downtown Chicago where I work the other half of the time, seeing my psychoanalytic patients and a handful of others.This suburban office, which I share on alternate days withDr Gonzalez, is in a brown brick, three story 1970s office building situated between strip malls, car dealerships, and fast food restaurants The office is sparely appointed It has a large oak desk with two chairs facing it and a small corner table with a modest arrangement of artificial silk flowers, a gift from my wife A window spanning most of one wall gives a view of the traffic on 95th Street The walls are off white, and the carpeting and furniture are a mixture of browns Except for the window, there are few distractions.Karen settles in the chair facing my desk and sighs.What brings you to see me I ask I use this standard opening line because it encourages the person to begin confiding their troubles without putting them on the defensive Nearly all the alternatives What do you want Whats wrong with you I understand youre depressed .are off putting.Karen shifts uneasily, trying to find a comfortable position Shes too big for the chair, although her posture, compact and turned slightly to the side, makes her look smaller.Ive been depressed for the past three and a half years, she says Before she speaks, she takes a quick breath, which gives the impression of hesitation, and her speech is full of effort and reluctance She pauses.Never depressed before that I ask.She shrugs, but shakes her head.Any problems with depression growing up Another head shake.No, I had no problems until the birth of my second child, my daughter, by cesarean section She briefly describes her hospital stay I still have pain Karen sighs again, gathering strength.The doctors ended up taking out part of my lung through an incision on my back She points along a line from her right breast to her spine I was sick for a long time and I couldnt be withmy baby right away Moisture appears in Karens eyes I couldnt breast feed, and my two and a half year old son rejected me when I finally came home.She tells me shed been put on antidepressant medication and painkillers, although the painkillers made her depressed I know that for patients with chronic pain, depression is common The rest of her life must be suffering, too.How are things going at home, now I ask She shrugs again, apologetic and helpless She talks to me as if each word has to be urged out, as if an internal force is interfering with her telling me whats wrong Her words come out so slowly that I almost lose my concentration waiting for them.My marriage has crumbled since the baby My husband and I arent getting along Karens speech is halting now and she looks humiliated Ive gained a hundred pounds since the baby was born People walk all over me I cant say no to them She pauses and looks to me for a response, but I dont yet know enough to make any comments, so I just wait for Karen shifts again and continues.I cry all the time and Ive stopped working because of the pain When Im home, my pain is worse, but when Im outside, the pain is better She looks away, then back at me I feel guilty about being sick, and I feel I owe my family for helping me.You owe them Because theyve had to help me She turns her head away again to escape my looking at her.She goes on to say she wakes during the night and cant get back to sleep, and doesnt care any She has no energy, she cries, she cant concentrate, and she stopped taking the medication she was on As I listen, I see a woman unable to help herself She presents herself as a victim, almost insisting on the role, and I feel a twinge of impatience I know she has depression, with symptoms that can be helped by medication, but I also sense she possesses character traits that contribute to her depression and will make treating her illness difficult.After listening to her story, I ask my standard list of mental status questions Its clear she has significant depression, but she denies having any suicidal thoughts I decide to treat her depressive symptoms with medication and leave the character traits alone I ask her to come back to see me next week She accepts the prescription obediently and leaves the office My spirits raise a little as I see her go.I dont think about Karen again until she returns the next week She says she feels better, sleeps better, although she stillfeels sad.Ive had some light headedness from the medication, she says, picking at some lint on her slacks Im not sure I like the idea of pills.I think they can help you, I say I recommend we continue with them.Okay, she says softly.How else have you been feeling I still have pain, which starts at my neck and goes down my back and around under my breast, here She points to her chest Karen repeats the complaints of our previous session I cant say no to people I feel guilty because my mother helped me when I was sick, and now I owe her I try to satisfy everybody My marriage hasnt recovered from my illness With all of these things I feel I can offer only limited help She never offers a hint of what she herself is doing to solve herproblemsshe simply suffers I listen to her with that twinge of annoyance growing inside me again Its important for a therapist to be aware of his or her own reaction to a patient and try to learn from it Is this irritation felt by the other people in Karens life I wonder I suggest to Karen that she can change her life if she wants to and that she neednt be as helpless as she now feels I give her several examples using situations shes mentioned, and suggest how she might make assertive choices to alter the self defeating patterns shes following She offers excuses why thats not possible and I realize Im talking to a stone I double her medication and ask her to come back in two weeks..When Karen returns, her hands are trembling Shes dressed as before she has on different clothes, but the drab, tidy impression is the same Her forehead is creased with lines down the middle She shifts in her chair and looks at me her eyes are sad.I cant sleep at night, she says softly, tentatively, beginning a litany of complaints that Im familiar with from our last twosessions.Do you think about hurting yourself I ask Anyone whos this depressed and helpless must think about it Karen starts to cry a little.Occasionally I think about killing myself, she says, but quickly adds, I dont think Id really do anything.As I listen to her talk about the things that weigh on her but that she makes no effort to rid herself of, I feel my irritation with her grow She talks in a reluctant monotone and resists my interruptions, and when I make a suggestion, she nods dutifully butgoes right on as if Id said nothing I feel as if, in her passive way, shes walking all over me She seems determined to wallow and rut around in these self defeating emotions In my own mind, I try to separate the symptoms of her major depressive episode from her passive, self defeating personality traits I want to focus on treating the depression, which should be a short term task I dont really want to intervene with the personality traits theyre a very long term task I feel shes benefiting from the medication, but her response to it has been modest I triple her dose from her original starting dose and ask her to return in a month.Karen is my last patient of the day, and Im eager to get home I have a wife, a four year old son, and an eight month old baby girl waiting for me there After a day of listening to peoples problems, I know it will raise my spirits to see them.Four weeks later I go to the waiting room and look for Karen, but shes not there I return to my office and scan the notes Id made during her previous visits Its my routine, when a patient comes in for their appointment, to review the notes I made from our last session to remind myself of the course of their thoughts and emotions Patients always pick up where they left off, perhaps not in the subject matter, but always in the trail of their emotional associations Though the topics may change, the thread of their emotions will be the same or, hopefully, show some progress.At first, while sitting and waiting for Karen to arrive, I begin to wonder why she might be arriving late Had I touched on some sensitive topic or trait that she might be reluctant to explore in herself Is she afraid of getting close to me, and so by being late, is trying to dilute the therapeutic encounter by decreasing the minutes well spend together After ten minutes, I go out and look for her again shes still not there.As the minutes tick by, it dawns on me she isnt lateshes missed the session altogether Karen has been difficult to help, so I look over my notes again to try to find some clue why she didnt return As I read over what she told me and as I recall my feelings about her, its easy to see the several ways I failed to understand her and empathize with her Sometimes I get lost in the details of a persons life, and my own reactions to them, and I lose track of the big picture I see now that she was trying to please me by taking medication she didnt think was working for her, and that I was feeling irritation she wasnt getting better, and thought the way she was acting was wrong Clearly, my irritation had prevented me from really listening to her, with the result being shed decided I couldnt help her.In thinking about my failure, I reflect on the tendency of depressed patients to make psychiatrists feel anxious Behind every burst of a therapists annoyance is an anxiety But anxiety about what That the depression will be contagious And it is When you sit with a depressed person, you feel youre being fed upon that theyre sucking the life out of you, and it makes you depressed, too That was my problem with Karen and why it was hard to sit with her Over the years Ive worked with many, many depressed patients, but none got to me the way Karen did.About a month later, my secretary tells me shes received three checks from Karen, one for each session Each check bounces She calls Karen to say she has to bring the payment in cash Karen finally does If she is trying to engender anger in her psychiatrist, she knows how to go about it.Another three months pass, its a balmy spring day in late May, and I see Karens name on my list of patients for the afternoon When she comes in, she looks unchanged, dressed in dark slacks and a short sleeve faded green top, trembling a little, and as depressed as before I ask her why she stopped coming She says she was afraid to come back because of the bounced checks She was reluctant to submit my bills to her husbands insurer, because she feared everyone at his work would know she was coming here.I think her explanation is just a rationalization for the underlying emotional uncertainty she had about methat shes come back to give me a second chance I hope to use it wisely I reassure her and discuss the rules of confidentiality companies need to follow, pointing out that people at her husbands work wont know shes seeing me She resists using the insurance, but is worried about keeping up with my bill, so I suggest we start again by meeting once a month She is relieved and agrees The problem is, I worry that a half hour once a month will not be enough time to locate and treat what is ailing her.When Karen comes in next, on June 19, I remind myselfto focus and try to empathize with her hopelessness and helplessness, and really understand her, no matter how much her manner pushes me away I resolve to do better.I dont know what to do, Dr Baer I feel so shaky and down She pouts her lower lip, and it trembles I dont even want to live any I ask pointed questions aimed at coaxing out of her some specifics After a few minutes of teeth pulling on my part, she seems to gather herself.I have problems with my husband than I told you From the Hardcover edition.An important and insightful look into the world of a multiple Cameron West, bestselling author of FIRST PERSON PLURALThis is Dr Baers incredibly moving and inspiring account of how his patient, Karen, drove herself to heal psychic wounds that surely would have devastated someone less resolute Particularly fascinating is how Baer, despite frequently feeling overwhelmed, guided Karen to a place where she could risk knowing and exploring the horrors lurking in her elaborate inner world Throughout the book, one marvels at this caring therapist and his immense honesty, courage and commitment Dena Rosenbloom, Ph.D., co author of LIFE AFTER TRAUMASWITCHING TIME takes the reader on an absorbing journey through a psychiatrists dauntingly challenging first case of multiple personality disorder from the beginning of therapy to stable integration and recovery Vividloaded with fascinating detailsa richly rewarding read Colin Ross, author of MULTIPLE PERSONALITY ORDER and THE OSIRIS COMPLEX From the Hardcover edition. 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