⥊   ᔢ The Girl Who Smiled Beads: A Story of War and What Comes After text  ᔢ The Girl Who Smiled Beads: A Story of War and What Comes After  ⧅ By Clemantine Wamariya 䖠 ⥊ ᔢ The Girl Who Smiled Beads: A Story of War and What Comes After text ᔢ The Girl Who Smiled Beads: A Story of War and What Comes After ⧅ By Clemantine Wamariya 䖠 This excerpt is from an advance uncorrected copy proof Copyright 2018 Clemantine Wamariya and Elizabeth WeilThe night before we taped the Oprah show, in 2006, I met my sister Claire at her apartment in a public housing unit in Edgewater, where she lived with the three kids shed had before age twenty two, thanks to her ex husband, an aid worker whod pursued her at a refugee camp A black limo arrived and drove us to downtown Chicago, to the Omni Hotel, where my sister used to work I now cant think about that moment without also thinking about my own navet, but at the time all I felt was elated.I was eighteen, a junior at New Trier High School, living Monday through Friday with the Thomas family in Kenilworth, a fancy suburb I belonged to the church youth group I ran track Id played Fantine in the school production of Les Misrables I was whoever anybody wanted me to be.Claire, meanwhile, remained steadfast, herself, a seemingly rougher bargain Unlike me, she was not a child when we got resettled in the United States, so nobody sent her to school or took her in or filled her up with resourcespiano lessons, speech therapists, cheerleading camp Claire just kept hustling For a while she made a living throwing parties, selling drinks and hiring DJs who mixed American hip hop, the Congolese superstar Papa Wemba, and French rap But then she learned it was illegal to sell liquor without a license and she started working full time as a maid, cleaning two hundred hotel rooms a week.All I knew about the show we were taping was that it was a two part series the first segment showed Oprah and Elie Wiesel visiting Auschwitz, God help us the second featured the fifty winners of Oprahs high school essay contest Like the other winners, I had written about Wiesels book Night, his gutting story of surviving the Holocaust, and why it was still relevant today The book disarmed me I found it thrilling, and it made me ashamed Wiesel had words that I did not have to describe the experiences of my early life.Id dictated my essay to Mrs Thomas, as she sat in her tasteful Midwestern housegracious lawn, mahogany floorsat a huge old computer that took up the whole desk Clemantine, shed said, you have to enter I just know youll win Mrs Thomas had three children of her own, plus me I called her my American mother and she called me my African daughter She packed my lunch every day and drove me to school.In my essay I said that maybe if Rwandans had read Night, they wouldnt have decided to kill one another. On the way to downtown Chicago, Claire and I had the inevitable conversationis this happening This is so weirdwhich was as close as my sister and I got to discussing whathad happened to our lives If we absolutely had to name our past in each others presence, wed call it the war But we tried not to do that, and that day we were both so consumed by all the remembering and willful forgetting that when we arrived at the Omni and the bellhop asked, Do you have any bags we realized wed left all our clothes at home.Claire took the L back to her apartment, where a friend was watching her childrenMariette, who was almost ten Freddy, who was eight and Michele, who was five I stayed in the hotel room, lost.Harpo Studios gave us each a 150 stipend for dinner It was than Claires monthly food stamp allowance When Claire returned we ordered room service We woke at 4 00 a.m and spent hours getting dressed.That day, for the show, the producers directed us to the huge studio Oprah sat onstage on a white love seat, next to tired old Elie Wiesel in a white overstuffed chair He was alive, old but alive, which meant the world to me He kept looking at the audience, like he had a lot to say but there was no time to say it.In this nice studio, in front of all these well dressed people, Oprahs team played the video of Oprah and Elie Wiesel walking arm in arm through snow covered Auschwitz, discussing the Holocaust.Then the producers gave us a break We sat in silence Some of us were horrified and others were crying.After that, Oprah said glowing things about all the winners of the essay contest except me I told myself this was fine Fine I hadnt really gone to school until age thirteen, and when I was seven Id celebrated Christmas in a refugee camp in Burundi with a shoebox of pencils that Id buriedunder our tent so that nobody would steal it Being in the audience was enough, right Plus, I kept wanting to say to Oprah Do you know how many years, and across how many miles, Claire has been talking about meeting you But then Oprah leaned forward and said, So, Clemantine, before you left Africa, did you ever find your parents I had a mike cord tucked under my black TV blazer and a battery pack clipped to my black TV pants, so I should have suspected something like this was coming No, I said We tried UNICEF , we tried everywhere, walking around, searching and searching and searching.So when was the last time you saw them she asked.It was 1994, I said, when I had no idea what was going on.Well, I have a letter from your parents, Oprah said, as though wed won a game show Clemantine and Claire, come on up here Claire held on to me She was shaking, but she kept on her toughest, most skeptical face, because she knows about the world than I do, and also because she refused to think, even after all wed been through, that anybody was better or important than she was When we were dirt poor and alone, shed be in her seventh hour of scrubbing someones laundry by hand and shed see on a TV an image of Angelina Jolie, swaggering and gleaming, radiating moral superiority, and even then Claire would say, Who is that God You, youre human Nothing separates me from you.I have never been Claire I have never been inviolable Often, still, my own life story feels fragmented, like beads unstrung Each time I scoop up my memories, the assortment is slightly different I worry, at times, that Ill always be lost inside I worry that Ill be forever confused But that day I leapt up onto the set, smiling One of the most valuable skills Id learned while trying to survive as a refugee was reading what other people wanted me to do.This is from your family, in Rwanda, Oprah said, handing me an envelope She looked solemn, confident in her purpose From your father and your mother and your sisters and your brother.Claire and I did know that our parents were alive We knew theyd lost everythingmy fathers business, my mothers gardenand that they now lived in a shack on the outskirts of Kigali We talked to them on the phone, but only rarely becausehow do you start Why didnt you look harder for us How are you Im fine, thanks, Ive been working at the Gap and Ive found its much easier to learn to read English if you also listen to audiobooks.I opened the envelope and pulled out a sheet of blue paper Then Oprah put her hand on mine to stop me from unfolding the letter It was a huge relief I didnt want to have a breakdown on TV.You dont have to read it right now, in front of all these people, Oprah said You dont have to read it in front of all these people She paused, master of stagecraft that she is Because because your family IS HERE I started walking backward Claires jaw unhinged in a caricature of shock Then a door that had images of barbed wire on itcreated especially for this particular episode, I assume, to evoke life in an internment campopened stage right and out came an eight year old boy, who was apparently my brother He was followed by my father, in a dark suit, salmon shirt, and tie a shiny new five year old sister my mother in a long blue dress and my sister Claudette, now taller than me Id last seen her when she was two years old and I still believed my mother had picked her up from the fruit market.Id fantasized about this moment so many times In Malawi, I used to write my name in dust on trucks, hoping my mother would see my loopy cursive Clemantine and realize that I was alive In Zaire, Id saved coins so I could buy my parents presents In Tanzania, Id collected marbles for my older brother, Pudi, who wasnt there for this reunion Pudi was dead.Claire remained frozen But I, in my TV clothes and blown out hair, ran toward my Oprah produced family, arms outstretched I hugged my brother I hugged my father I hugged my tiny little sister I hugged my mother, but my knees gave out and she had to pick me up Then I hugged her I hugged Claudette, my little sister, little no I walked across the stage and hugged Oprah I hugged lovely, weathered Elie Wiesel.The cameras were so far away that I forgot I was participating in a million viewer spectacle, that my experience, my joy and pain, were being consumed by the masses, though I was aware enough to realize that everybody in the audience was crying.A few hours later, though it seemed like minutes, we found ourselves on the sidewalk outside the studio, and my family took a black limo north to my sisters apartment She lived in the front unit in a squat brick low rise, across the street from the L tracks and a block away from an abandoned wooden house with a gable roof, a once fantastic, now forgotten home that I hoped would someday be ours I would put everybody in it We would be a family again.Nobody talked in the car In the apartment, nobody knew what to do, either My mother, in her long blue dress, kept sitting down and standing up and touching everythingthe living room walls, the TV remoteand singing about how God had protected us and now we must serve and love him My father kept smiling, as though someone he mistrusted were taking pictures of him Claire remained nearly catatonic rocking, stone faced I thought shed finally gone crazy, for real.I sat on Claires couch, looking at my strange new siblings, the ones whod replaced me and Claire They looked so perfect, their skin unblemished, their eyes alight, like an excellent fictional representation of a family that could have been mine But they didnt know me and I didnt know them and the gap between us was a billion miles wide.I fell asleep crying on Mariettes bed and woke still wearing my Oprah shoes.The next day was Friday Of course, I didnt go to school We needed to start making up for so much lost time Yet I couldnt look at my parentsthey were ghosts.I felt gratitude, yes Oprah had brought my parents to me But I also felt kicked in the stomach, as though my life were some psychologists perverse experiment Lets see how far we can take a person down, and then how far we can raise her up, and then lets see what happens Saturday, my family, along with the Thomases, drove up the lakeshore to the Chicago Botanic Garden, where we stared at the Illinois lilies and roses We all wanted these to be beautiful links to the lilies and roses in Kigali, threads knitting this present to that past, but everything was awkward, and it felt as though cameras were still following us around Sunday we did Navy Pierthe gaudy Ferris wheel, the sticky cotton candy, all the tourist stuff.My father kept smiling his fake, pained smile Mine probably looked the same a smile covering a scream Claire barely said a word Then, Monday morning, my parents and new siblings left on the flight back to Rwanda that Oprahs people had booked for them, and Mrs Thomas picked meup as usual at Claires apartment I had no idea how to make sense of what had just happened So I just ran out to her Mercedes and she dropped me off at school.Sharp, moving Wamariya and her co author, Elizabeth Weil describe Wamariyas idyllic early childhood in the Rwandan capital, Kigali, and the madness that followed with an analytic eye and, at times, a lyrical honesty Wamariya is piercing about her alienation in America and her effort to combat the perception that she is an exotic figure, to be pitied or dismissed Wamariya tells her own story with feeling, in vivid prose She has remade herself, as she explains was necessary to do, on her own terms Alexis Okeowo, New York Times Book Review Like Ishmael Beahs A Long Way Gone,on being a boy soldier in Sierra Leone, or Joseph Kims Under the Same Sky,on escaping North Korea, The Girl Who Smiled Beads is at once terrifying and life affirming And like those memoirs, it painstakingly describes the human cost of war Washington PostRemarkable Wamariya and the journalist Elizabeth Weil set out to sabotage facile uplift The fractured form of her own narrativedeftling toggling between her African and American odysseysgives troubled memory its dark due Ann Hulbert, The Atlantic Wamariyas memoir proves how the human spirit can triumph It truly floored me Elisabeth Egan, Glamour Unforgettable People Gripping It is our human tragedy that there will always be war, and that there will always be displaced people Memoirs that show exactly what that means, exactly what the toll is, are vital The Minneapolis Star TribuneWamariya along with Outsidecontributor Elizabeth Weil tells her storywhich, yes, is often extremely toughwith brilliance OutsideIn the aftermath of the Holocaust, witnesses and survivors shared reflections that changed our moral understanding of good and evil and all that lies between In The Girl Who Smiled Beads, Clemantine Wamariya has written a defining, luminescent memoir that shines a sharp light on the dark forces that roil our age If you read this bookand once you read the first page, you will not put it downyou will never think about political violence, displacement, or the privileges and responsibilities of citizenship the same way again Wamariya tells the story of her discombobulating resettlement in the United States as a teenager, following her harrowing experiences in the Rwandan genocide and as a refugee roaming the African continent in search of a home Wamariya is unsparing in her criticisms of Western indifference and moral presumptuousness, and she subjects her own judgments and values to the same withering scrutiny, revealing a young woman that figures out how to survive but struggles to learn how to live Her gripping and brutally honest reflections inspire us to count our blessings and summon us to follow her fierce and unrelenting example to try to help build the world we wish to see Samantha Power, author of A Problem from Hell America and the Age of Genocide Anna Lindh Professor of the Practice of Global Leadership and Public Policy, Harvard Kennedy SchoolThis book is not a conventional story about war and its aftermath its a powerful coming of age story in which a girl explores her identity in the wake of a brutal war that destroyed her family and home Wamariya is an exceptional narrator and her story is unforgettable Publishers Weekly starred review At once heart breaking and hopeful, Wamariya s story is about power and helplessness, loneliness and identity, and the strange juxtaposition of poverty and privilege This beautifully written and touching account goes beyond the horror of war to recall the lived experience of a child trying to make sense of violence and strife Intimate and lyrical, the narrative flows from Wamariyas early experience to her life in the United States with equal grace A must read Library Journal starred review In this eloquent and engaging memoir, Clemantine Wamariya recalls a childhood spent as a refugee on the run from war, violence, and terror, and a womanhood shaped by those experiences Affecting and utterly eye opening, The Girl Who Smiled Beadsis a powerful reminder of just how strong and indomitable the human spirit can be Bustle Lyrical and hauntingly beautiful The Girl Who Smiled Beadswill inspire you Chanrithy Him, author of When Broken Glass FloatsA powerful record of the refugee experience with moments of potent self reckoning Kirkus ReviewsIn her prose as in her life, Wamariya is brave, intelligent, and generous Sliding easily between past and present, this memoir is a soulful, searing story about how families survive Booklist Monica Bielanko The Girl Who At work I dutifully engage in the requisite, mostly weather related, conversations required to grease wheels of small talk necessary make a trip coffee machine or restroom not completely, unbearably awkward The Who Played with Fire Wikipedia Swedish Flickan som lekte med elden is second novel best selling Millennium series by writer Stieg Larsson It was published posthumously and English January Invented Kissing IMDb Directed Tom Sierchio With Vincent Piazza, Dash Mihok, Suki Waterhouse, Abbie Cornish This movie story nameless, pill popping drifter girl who steps off bus into neighborhood bar owned two 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